Mikey *AKA* Vin Diesel

What a journey it has been... For a long time I doubted that he was sick. I took him to his appts followed all of the doctors instructions, but because he had hair- it never really sank in.
I am not sad because I knew this day would come. At first I would notice a little falling out on his pillowcase. Then his hair slowly became thinner and thinner, but after round 6 or so we got the new Mikey!!! I kinda like it. I think he looks like a tough guy! Which after what he has been through- he is!! So this is Mikey Vin Diesel!

Mikey has his last(my fingers are crossed and I am knocking on wood right now) chemo on Wed. the 28th. I don't know how I will feel when the flush beeps and the last chemo is done? Will I cry??? Will I yell for joy? I don't know. What i do know is that I am forever changed. People who knew me before probably wouldn't know me now. From the beginning I have always tried to be happy and smile no matter what because I owe that to Michael. He deserves to be happy and loved. But on the inside there is a light bulb that needs to be replaced. Cancer, no matter what age, is a journey through a maze. Every corner has something different and you just keep trying to head for the end. There is this eerie silence at times when there just isn't anything to say. No one on the outside understands. I wish I could go back to being young, foolish, and naive.

We scan in the middle of Feb. and all I want to hear is three letters N.E.D. ( no evidence of disease). I will take "Scans are clean". I have scanxiety already. (Vickie's term)

Please keep Mikey in your prayers along with all of the other children at TCH and everywhere else.

Mayada